Some pics

Running with my daughter for the first time. What a feeling.

Whew....been a while.

Well....a lot has happened. My daughter turned 3 (April 2nd), I ran on the beach with her for the very first time, had another bronc (rejection free), put off the wedding until next year....mainly because I'm dealing with lots of depression and anxiety. I've been on several different drugs ranging from Paxil (made my neck muscles tighten and I looked really awful with my head cocked to the side), Zoloft (bumped up two different times and then had an incredibly low time and switched), Wellbutrin....worked BUT insurance wouldn't pay for it!! So I'm now on a different version of Wellbutrin. Seems to be ok. I still struggle daily. Getting my little every Wed, Thur, and Fri night now. Me and her daddy are splitting our time and it seems to be going extremely well. Tomorrow...breakfast with the rents and Mira, Les' wedding at 4p, then I'm going to try to make Lisa's bday celebration. 21!! Shout out Lis <3 A great family friend (actually she IS family) had surgery today and I just want to lift her up in prayer. So now I'm working on finding a job, as a seem to go crazy when I don't have anything to do. I'll be adding some pics of the beach and you can see my killa scars!

Decided to update again. I spent the night at home last night and was able to make it through a movie with Ron. We watched A Team. Great movie btw. I almost couldn't make it through. Ron convinced me though, lol. He's so incredible. My face is different now bc of the meds so that's just another thing added to the list of why I'm down. I don't look like myself. My face is all swollen. I call it the prednisone puff. Hopefully they'll back down on it soon and I'll go back to normal by the wedding. Still so much to do for that too. Went to Best Buy to return stuff today and to target to pick up cold meds. Turns out, I'm sick also. So just remember me in your prayers. I'm struggling but fighting to make it out. I feel like I'm clawing my way out of the ground. I'll make it. My babygirl needs me!

Depression.

So, recently I've been hit very hard with depression. The docs say it's probably all the meds I'm on mixed with this HUGE life change I'm going through. I don't have much to write except that I need your prayers. This is the most miserable feeling ever. I'll probably write more later. Missing Ron a ton bc I'm temporarily with my mom seeing as how she's home more often than Ron. It's still tough. Don't want to get out of bed or do anything. Maybe I should try reading. Please pray for me. PLEASE. Love to all, Ape.