Breathe It In

I know we aren't supposed to question things but I am right now. WHY?? Why her? My fiance's bestest has health problems and they aren't minor. She is such a marvelous person and so caring. Seems to me like it's always the people that deserve to live the most that have so many options taken away. Poked and prodded, being a guinea pig, numerous medical tests and still being partially clueless. WTF?! Sometimes, life just pisses me off. So many people are so ungrateful for the simple things. I won't delve into what these "simple" things are, but I'm sure you can figure out what I mean. The way I try to see it is: Most people don't have a terminal illness. Meaning, they don't treasure every little moment. I have been blessed to experience what it's like to know how a big of a deal it is to see my babygirl smile. To have a man love me and all that comes with me. To have parents that are always on my side. Having friends that know what to do/say when things get rough. A family that will always pull together if needed. The sun on my face. Wind blowing through my hair. Making snow angels. Dancing in the rain. These things I cherish. All the others like me do as well. At the end of the day, Kat and I have a lot in common. I can come to her upset and she for the most part knows what I mean. She gets so much of what I'm experiencing. Just the unfairness of it all. We're beginning to lean on one another and I'm so thankful for her. No one likes to have a normal life choice just ripped from them due to an illness. We fight. That's all we can do. I fight for me. I fight for her. I fight for us all. Don't take one single moment, no matter how miniscule it may seem, for granted. We don't.